Rumours or is it happening?

i feel myself gettin more easy to jealous? or angry on smth…
mayb bcuz i had been left alone here…

tdy the registeration day…
feel myself is no longer in their grp…
one of my close buddy… abandoned me to daftar wif d other grp bcuz my programmin skill is nt as gud as the other fren.. so he wana join d grp and put me aside…
feel d world is so “yin sek” …
the bad will be abandoned by the others…

perhaps i shud take tis as a process of growin up….

one more things… is vy special happen on tdy…

i found the thief who stole my helmet… juz coincidence he take the same lift wifme …yes he is a KTR K11 penghuni… i see a helmet tat is vy familar to me holdin on his hand…

i closely examine evry part of if… evy scratch i had on it.. dun forget i gt mani accident… i rmb each of the scratch hw i get it… can sure tat is mine helmet who is stolen…

in the middle of thinkin .. i reli feel wana scold him dy inside d lift… i pull myself bek,, nt coz i sked of him… juz tat i think is nt a gud option coz i nt juz oni wana scold tat guy,.. i wana catch him in disiplin record.., i will watch over him… if i ever see him does any crime… dun think i will let him get away…

OK fine… i noe who u are… U are a thief!!!! SHAME ON YOU!!!!! SHAME ON YOUR RACE!!! SHAME ON YOUR FAMILY MEMBER…. BLACK SHEEP!!!! ….

do u notice tdy when u go out u see mani pink colors flower on the road side….
ya is the sign of off-spring perhaps….

my study life hv never be the same… last time i strugle to get gud grade in my result… nw i strungle to get a pass on my test…. its indicator my legend has remain a history… i nowhere to be here….  okey la i cant gave up… i muz keep goin tat my destiny,, i cannot stop things that i dun like and then find a new path to start over….

try to make myself more brave,,, malu jau malu lorr… do wat my hearts want to…

(my mission to acomplish : can i get a place for internship before end FEB ??? )
Get to full energy….Take all my effort to do it….

i m home bt my snoopy is nt wit me…
past week i ad nt see my blue shirt snoopy
bt i can entrust tat he will be alrite n safe juz tat i want him home.

hehe

i realise tat there is no chance i can study at my own room…
i reli kenot concentrate when i m inside d room…
is juz certainlly nt a best place 4 me to study….
it make myself bcum lazi lazi n lazi
i dun like the hot weather durin day or the nite (cant believe at nite oso can bcum so hot)

my last effort of study come today n oso tml d last to determine my future in here….so i decided to study at outside…. i prefer b11 as best plce for me to study…

dai tou har me…. can forget to bring some of my papers out…so end up i hv to go bek to my room again n take it out,,,,haiz

 
bt at nite is rainin…. mayb d rain nt so heavy at beginnin,,,, bt later on it start to pours… i m all wet….while ridin i wan to be safety reach destination coz i hv 3 things in my mind…  i wana do my psm correction for toppin my marks…. i wana read for the comin exam ccna…. and d last thing is bou my future……
althou i hv bit sour when i first start came here…… coz i felt tat she like tryin to avoidin seein me…… hmmm ….. i think i hv to be more closer wit her…… to noe her exactly n let her noe me……….. i dun wan hv her to be strange when seein me….i juz wan a normal life…. i hv to be more kful wit my action nt to cause any unusual situation happens>>>

final comin . am i too tension to study, i hv no direction whre to start my revision, here i mean the topic shud i study. i dun noe wat the topic is all about.. all in brain is nth abou it. so it will be veri hard for me to start on.
tat mean i will put more time avoidin to studi and do more wu liao stuff..
Ya here i am write another entry here,,,, hmmm can mean tat my mood is nt so gud,,,i think sometimes the ppl u treat them gud they will think vise versa…. d last time i hv some crash wit her is tryin to help somebdy to regain his confidence in his belief bt end up,,,, the othr way round… and afta tat i promise nt to invlve animore…bt it didnt happen… i one time i step into d confusion world…. i hd gav mani bad remarks to tat person… bt i dint mean d word,,, i juz tryin to make tat guy to realise dun k wat other ppl say… belief wat u think…bt tat moron take my word as account and let it out… which i oso dun mind… cuz i m the stupiest person to do tat kind of thing…. and i hv to take d effect so i wont do it again in future….more n more i did d same which i entrusted d same person hd nt gven faith afta all i get bek… juz bcuz of the same reason,,,, i cant believe i had hurt a person tat i reli care,,,, tis is black point of my life…… and i can no more make ani promises afta tis incident…. bt tonite my heartache is nt the same reason of my previous hd,,,,tis time is certainly i m sure i m as his say i m in the chained of d curse in my class

[the above line is rekaan semata-mata- for isi my freetime and imagination]

yea bek to uni oso after never ending journey…. frm ipoh - utm take abou 7 hours laaa…..veri sien and hungry……

so see him lo…….althou nt so cleary coz i din wear my spec bt can sense tat his existense…….. hv some conversation wit him bt he still d same nver change….. treat me as cool as an ice…. tis reflect me wit somethin ,,, tat is my another fren tat sudli hv been like so stranger…… it happen veri faz tat i oso kenot figure it myself wat had changes…. so he nw gav me like so slow motion screen tat d same situtation happenin b4… tis time i open widely my eyes to see…. wat actuali goin on,,, i reli dun wan live in a life tat does nt no was is happenin around me……. so i will take closer look wateva its happenin …no initiative to change anytin…juz let it be…..

wat a tough week to go for tis week hv mani proposals to prepare…. SE and oso d ISD…. nw my team member is working hard doin d SE….emmmm i din join coz i nt feelin well…. i today kena air hujan mani times dy so cool… dun wan ride motor at nite laa…. my excuses….emmmm i oso gt do a proposals actuali so pass to sean…hope can help….actuali i gt lots of idea in our project,,,,, no chance to share wit u guys,,,, so u all do ur way laaa,,,,, nid anytin juz tell me ….tis is wat i told them mani times….

comin up next test will hv mani…so will be tough one for me,,,coz not done any readin nor revision yet….wish can score welll….hope d luck will come my way….

i think my plan to DIY somethin like nt possible coz dunno wat happen …my fren failed to buy stuff for me ,,, he will explain to me soon wo,,,,so wait for his answer….. today is my fren ming nyet birthday!!!! so wana wish him lots of happiness!!!!

hahah last nite was quite fun actuali coz there a visit by a sweet fren ,,,,
bird ,,, little baby bird… is a tweety types… come into my room…
and trap inside my room… i think it is hurt so it couldnt fly…

so ytd nite i hv to play wit this little creature almost an hour ,,,
veri funny… i run all over here n there when d bird fly on me…
sked by a bird lolz…..

wai siang n i gt argue over the existence of the bird,,, i say d bird here coz it nid us help… we cannot dump it putside lidat…lolz…. he oso speak to the bird use mandarin ten i told him d bird oni understand cantonesse -coz i chat wit it at 1st gt gav me response….

EMm of coz i couldnt deal wit it alone… so i get alone of help throu…who tat lehh is our most berani guy in scs,,,, mr siu keong….haha

he help me take care of my little fren wo,,, everythin ten was bek to normal… no more running looo….

tat bird veri nakal oso dirtier all my room,,, it left some gold on my room…. hehe… hope it will be fine n recover soon….so d bird i think is nw stay wit his god father mr . siu keong guaa….

wana gav d bird name laaa… any suggestion?

Every ppl hv a place to be when they are nt happy…  tis my place I come when happen…

Pain wit no endin come into heart whenever u realize the distance is gettin far… d goal of life sometimes can be v confusin . u say u will forget. U say u playin . bt tat when come to real is still remain coz u nt given urself to fix. .. nw his say to u he wan to make d whole heart of her.. u juz cant hold in bek… u dun wan to cross d line again for another time. U oni wan to shield ur pain in a piece o white sheet.. cant sleep coz u still care

Runnin out of time is my favourite chinesse movie.. staring Lau Ching Wan n oso Andy Lau in 1^st episode while Ekin Cheng the 2^nd episode…

Ever think before that u can experience the moment in that movie?..

So wat I do today, early in the morni , knock knock on the door, wake up by lipas… nt so early actuali is near 10 am jo…bt bcoz I sleep at 4 sumthin ma tat y it still can consider as early…y sleep so late lehh? I drug my roommate to play DotA la…haha…the unsung hero hav finally make his apperance… We all go to tmn. U to buy our stuff… I hav ‘char siu fan’ n oso kfc meal tis time…ermm bt the doraemon toy I didn’t manage to buy coz saturday no cheeky meal sold..little disappointed L..

We’ re back at noon hour, so I think nt waste so much time hanging around in the mall…juz the long hour of waitin bus..sigh…Then continue play I our DotA match …haha..enjoy

At nite I went to the pasar malam in krp…is has many booth tat promote the merdeka history…c many frens at there oso…n oso try the nangka fries if I nt wrong.. lipas teach me to eat the biji oso..ehh is yummy la…never eat this kind of foods…and then I receive sms then from my guitar tutor in Buddhist club, say he had buy the guitar 4me n nw bringin to me…so I rushin bek to my blok from cengal there…hp lend me his bike…

Greats moments for tonite.. I got my very first guitar( thank you zhong xin )…I dunno hw to play it… but very eager to learn…so will hav a very busy life in here…i nid to arrange my time to do assignments, japanesse language, to do vb and get prepare to enter robocon team and of coz nt to forgot d entertainment…

Time is still tickin… I bek to my room after got my guitar …and chat a bit wif cheeky n dailo… suddenly I had a mind to go to hav a look of the lion in ktr dewan…I ask them to go wif me.. n we all are runnin goin there…we are lucky as we still hav d chance to see the lion..when we at there the lion is aledi out of the cage , ppl there is pushin the lion to the truck… bt the others animal nt get to see…as they all are aledi in the truck…

I oso lost my mind as I lose my energy runnin around. I do all the gila gila stuff.. shoutin, singin , n oso I aca aca like dancing under the spot light( road light) while they are playin music ….we all playin ‘tin tin’ there…cheeky run bek veri fast n I tryin to push him to stop runni…playin kejar kejar around the road juz remind me the movie Running Out Of Time 2~ so I deiced to put this as my today blog title…